Start valuing your loved ones before they leave you for good

I have not been blogging because my grandma passed away recently and I don't have the time and mind to blog.

I just want to rant something about my this stupid aunt. At the cremation place ( I am not sure what is it call) one of my auntie cried like a mad woman. She yelled and nearly fainted. I was really like WTF! If you really love your mum, you should always be filial to her, buy her the food that she wants to eat and etc when she is still alive! I feel that this auntie is such a great ACTOR! I hate her!

My mom told me that just 1 week before my grandma passed away, this auntie actually complaint to my grandma and said my grandma was very troublesome blah blah. All along I know this auntie is not very filial to my grandma. So why bother to cry like as if you love your mother alot? It just an act! A stupid act to show other relatives how filial she is!

May my grandma rest in peace. 

Argh! Damn blogger!!

Why do they have to stop the FTP support!!! I didn't know they gonna have this migration tool and I went to manually switch it to host under blogspot.com. Now all my site traffic is gone due to the fact that when people are googling stuffs, all the links are pointed to chocolate-mango.net/kristinism/blah blah blah.... =(

My complaint letter to BBDC!

Yesterday I am very angry with my driving instructor and therefore I should go ahead and write a letter to complaint him!!

Here's what I wrote =P

To: person-in-charge,
I have attended 18 lessons in BBDC as a school student and so far I have met good instructors from my own group (G8002). However, on the 4th Jan 2010, I didn't get my own group instructors and I got this Chinese instructor (instructor no.6341 as indicate in the web when I login), car E111.

He is the worst instructor that I ever encounter.When the lesson started, he wasted alot of my precious time by waiting and waiting. I do understand that sometimes we have to give way to test car or any other cars that pass by but when those cars have already passed by, he still sit there waiting and relax for no reason.

After that he drove to the vertical parking area, and then there was another instructor walked by, he ended up talking to him. Totally a waste of my time and after that he then decided to go on with the lesson.

When he was demonstrating on how to do the vertical parking, he simply just do it without saying anything. He did not give any instruction and guidelines on how to do it. He demo twice and I realized that the way he did it is different from the book. So I asked him, why his method seems different from the book. He laughed and said that it's not necessary to follow the book. I understand his point of view and therefore I asked him, "then from your method, can you show me at which point I need to start turning the wheels to full lock?" He then demonstrated to me one more time and after that I finally get the chance to try.By than more than half an hour has gone!

I don’t wish to get too long winded so I will summarize the other important points on why he totally failed as an instructor and why I simply wasted my money and time on that day.

1. He DID NOT tell me when and where to check the blindspots. He is an instructor, shouldn’t he BE THE ONE telling me? If I didn't ask him is he not going to open his mouth and tell me what things to take note?

2. He should has told me to turn the wheel more to the left or right VERBALLY and not keep adjusting my wheels without saying anything to me. How would I know what's wrong with my driving and how can I learn anything from the way he do it? For your info, I never has such problem with other instructor. The other instructor that I have met, if they feel like I'm going too left or right, they will always tell me things like, “turn abit more to the left or right.” I am the one learning, if I am not doing it correctly, shouldn't he be guiding me and therefore I can learn from my mistake?

3. He keep on steeping on the brake, to further slow down my speed when I'm only driving on 20km/h. If there's danger infront of me I can understand why he did it. He seems to be doing it for fun! if I need to brake more, shouldn't he be using HIS MOUTH TO TELL ME? This is what other instructor will do, if there's a need to slow down, they will inform me to brake more. If everything he wants to do it for me, then shouldn't he be sitting on the driver's seat instead of me?

4. He DID NOT tell me when to straighten my car when doing the parking and he just EXPECT ME TO KNOW IT. When I asked this question, “is it at this point I should start straightening?” He immediately shoot this question back at me, “Do you know how to see if your vehicle is straight anot?” in a very proud manner. In the first place, if I know how to do it, I wouldn’t have ask him right? I asked him the question nicely, shouldn’t he be telling me how to do it instead of trying to mock at me?

5. He wasted my time again by asking me to driving round and the circuit and doing S and crank course, directional change and parallel parking. Sometimes he just asked me to drive 1 round without going through any course! I know it’s good to go through the previous stage item but since my vertical parking is already ok, and I did not knock down any poles, shouldn’t he be proceeding to the next stage which is 3.08 - Brake on ram?

6. HE IS VERY RUDE! When I asked him will we be touching on stage 3.08. He smirk and said, “Oh yes of cos……....... on your next lesson. Now not enough time” He said it in a sarcastic way and I very angry with his reply. At that point of time, I am not sure of the time, even if I did ask a silly question, should he be answering my question in this manner?

7. During my previous lesson, instructor Mazlan from group 8002, he managed to teach me stage 3.05 and 3.06 together in one lesson. I have no problem with him and he is a patient and detail instructor. I don’t see why this Chinese instructor can’t teach 2 stages in one lesson. If he did not waste my time again, will I be not able to complete 2 stages in 1 lesson? He even said that, “Oh vertical parking need 1 lesson to learn one”. If that is the reason then, why he did not spent the whole lesson teaching on this subject? Why he did not give me more attempts to do the vertical parking? Is there such a rule in BBDC that the student MUST take 1 lesson to do vertical parking? Must he really has to waste and drag my lesson time just because IT IS A MUST to spend 1 lesson on vertical parking? Now I might have to spend more money to book an additional slot for my driving, is BBDC going to refund my money for the lesson on 4th Jan? Logically the answer would be a no but it seems very unreasonable that I am paying money just to get a UNPROFESSIONAL instructor and a very unpleasant lesson.

8. Before the lesson ended, he did let me try the braking on the ram (stage 3.08) for 1 time as I requested for it. For your info, at that point of time we still have around 15 – 20mins He seems very unhappy with me, he slammed the door very loudly when he went out of the car to place the poles on the ram. Do I deserve such treatment? It is not as if we are left with 5 minutes! It's 15-20mins! When lesson ended, he didn't bother to review on how’s my performance and I did not ask him any question as my mood was already ruin by him.

Anyway, I find out that whenever I have my lesson and if the instructor is not from my group 8002, they tend to teach less thoroughly. They seems to have the mentally that “oh she’s not from my group so I can anyhow teach.” I heard from someone that instructor’s bonus is depends on the passing rate of the student from their group. If this is true, I can understand why instructors from other group are giving me a “lousy” lesson but at least their attitude is not as bad as this instructor no, 6341.

I hope to get some reply from those highlighted in red. If possible, please do give this instructor some warning. Also, is there any ways that I can avoid this instructor 6341 again? I don't wish to waste my time and money again to get such improper behavior and teaching from him.

I'm dying and the cashier lady from 7 eleven still tried to cheat my money!

I got driving at 9:50am today so I'm supposed to get my butt off the bed @ 8am but my lazy ass only managed to carry itself up by 8:30am. Hehe. When I got out of my house, I walked very quickly and I think I walked wayyyy to fast and began to feel really out of breath! I feel like oxygen is running away from me so I slowed down my pace and went to 7-11 to buy a bar of chocolate and a drink.

I took a mango juice & a bar of chocolate and paid at the counter. The cashier lady told me that if I bought another chocolate bar, it will only cost me additional of 50cent and it's very worth it. However, I was listening to my mp3 and so I didn't really know what she was talking. Then she repeat again, this time I then removed my earpiece.

So I went to take another bar of chocolate. The total is $3.50. I gave the lady $10 and after that I found a 50cent in my wallet then I told the lady I will give her the 50cent so she just need to return me $7 and so I stood there and wait.

The lady closed her cashier box and hand me a $2 note! I looked at her and she looked at me back. Then she asked me, "correct?" Then I told her, "No! I gave you $10 notes." Then she started to panic and she mumbled something to the another cashier lady beside her then she went to take a calculator.

(please note that after the cashier box is close, you can't open it again unless there's another transaction.)

She randomly pressing some nonsensical numbers and said, "I need to know how much is the total." I told her that it's $3.50 but she seems to ignore me and she went to look at the receipt. She then asked me again, "You give me $5 right?" I was fuming inside but I calmly told her that I give her $10 and another 50cent so she just need to return me another $5 on top of that $2 that she has already given me.

Then she went on pressing her calculator then she asked me, "I give to $2 right?" Then I answered, "Yes, so you just need to give me another $5." Then.... Here's come the MAIN PART OF THE STORY...........

The cashier lady slipped her hand under the cashier box and passed the $5 to me!! WTH! She thinks that I am stupid and try to cheat my money! She purposely hide the money under the cashier box and hope that I'm a stupid dum dum that will just walked away with $2. It's only $5! Why does she has to do that? *sigh*

Argh! Someone cracked my laptop screen!!!!!

JUST LOOK AT TH E FREAKING PHOTOS!

I was away just for a day and the freaking cleaner auntie did this to my work laptop!!!! Everyday, I will put my token and a pen on the laptop and go off from my work place. Please note that I always leave my laptop open as there's a laptop lock. THEN... to my horror, when I reached my workplace yesterday SOMEBODY CLOSED MY LAPTOP! I qucikily flipped the laptop open and... SAW THE DAMN CRACK!!! ARGH!

My colleague said yesterday the cleaner auntie was cleaning the table and well... the auntie just happily closed the laptop without thinking the THICKNESS of the token. %$^$%&$%&$ It's not like I want the scold those poor cleaner auntie but this is abit too much! Why can't they just put my laptop to 1 side before they clean it, why does she has to CLOSED my laptop without removing my token! You know, she just spoil the new laptop like that! Although it's more my laptop, I always use this for my work and it's 1 of the fastest laptop as compared to my other colleagues (HAHA.)

Look at right side of the screen. Poor laptop. (Ya, I know I'm playing Cafe world. Lol)


A clearer picture of the crack. *sigh*

Anyway, last night my colleagues and I went Crystal Jade to eat La Mian. The main purpose of this is actually for my boss's farewell dinner. Hmmm oh well... Anyway, I ordered Beef La Mian with Ma La and peanut sauce. It's yummy! =D

After that, I went Neverland with Wang Wang, Kai, Shaun, Nick & LK. It's the first time I went there and I finally get to see how Tanny look in real life. Haha. Before all the performance start, we sat there and play some random games. The performances by those Thai singer is not too bad. There is 1 male singer looks quite yandao and I asked LK if she will spent $ and 'tiao hua' for him.

Too bad I didn't take photo but Wang do. Haha. I didn't take those photos from him thou as it's like just some random snapping of us. He took a photo of me and Kai and both of us were like closing our eyes -__- Then LK was like every excited about taking photos with me and Shaun.

That night alone Wang spent $250 to 'tiao hua' for the Thai singer, Tanny. Wahaha. Then the 'tiao hua' lady came and asked Kai to 'tiao' for the girls, he did not want to spend any money, then he start to act like as if he is my bf and he told the lady that he can't 'tiao' or else I will get angry. He then added by saying, "don't make us quarrel ah." . Haha. Damn funny.

I guess the most surprise part was seeing Shaunie spent $50 to 'tiao hua' on Tanny too! Haha. He is someone who don't really spend alot of money so it's like an 'wow' thing for us.

Anyway, we all have fun. =D

Why need to use 美色 to get things done?

I felt really sian that I wanna get something done but I can't get it done. It's not because I can't do it but because I have to coordinate with other department.

Yesterday, I sent an email to S, asking her to help set up a 2 cheque float for my UAT testing. Sadly, she said she will be away for 2 days (Friday & Monday). Duh! So bo bian I have to forward the email to R. *tick tock tick tock*

Today, still no news from R. Argh! Without any choice left, I have to forward the email to V at around 2:30pm. I don't wish to coordinate with him! He is very tiko peh! Everything I ask him for help to do a certain task, he will end up trying to chat with me via email. $#%$#^#%^

At around 4pm plus, still no news, I intend to just wait but Ah Wang called me and asked if I have already asked the RBK team to do the cheque float. I told him I already did but no one respond to my email. Then... He asked me to just call V. He then added, "哎呀！Vincent 喜欢你吗！你打给他啦，他一定帮你。。。" Then he go on saying that I just need to "撒绞" abit he sure will help me and he ended the conversation by saying that I don't know how to use 美色to get people to do things for me. -____- In my heart I was like, WTH!!!

Yaa daa yaa daa... I don't wish to go into details

Driving drives me crazy

Driving lesson really drives me crazy. First it gave me problem due to the "manual & auto" issue next... It's the "delay" issues. Sorry, I'm really lazy to say in details about what's going on. It's really 他妈的！ So to counter this issues I have decided to switch to school. Lucky that I have not pay the $50 registration fees! Wahahaha!!

Then last night, I remember that if I'm going to sign up for school I have to bring my PDL. THEN THING STRUCK AGAIN! I think I lost it.... *sigh* Gotta go find it later. The last time I took it out was like weeks ago? Hmmm.. I'm getting forgetful -____-

Then this morning, I'm kinda shag but my mama really makes my day! My mama told me if really taking private gives me so much problems, I should just go ahead with school and she will pay half of the total amount for me!

Weehooo! Thanks mama!
妈妈万岁！

My worst BBQ ever!

Yesterday was my cousin 21st birthday. She celebrated her birthday by having a chalet at East Coast park. I was rather reluctant to go as we are not so close as cousin. Well, after all we still have to go as to give her family some "face".

When we reached there, the atmosphere was rather "cold". After that we decided to help ourselves with the food first as I'm famished! Other than the BBQ food, there's only been hoon, WHITE rice, curry and fishballs. -___- Alright, so I took some bee hoon with the curry. I went to look at the BBQ pit, there were 2 Ah Tiong BBQ-ing so I decided to eat my food and walk away.

After finishing my pathetic bee hoon, I wanted to BBQ for myself and my family but the 2 Ah Tiong were still occupying the 2 BBQ pit -____- I looked at them and they said, "Oh.. over here (pointing at the aluminium tray), all these are ready to eat." So poor me just went to aluminium tray and dig up some food to eat. I really don't need their service! I don't know why my cousin & her family are letting these 2 unknown Ah Tiong to BBQ. Probably they know these 2 but I don't =P

Just take a look at the pictures below.

Wow! Look at the corn! I think they really like the song, "Black & White" by Michael Jackson.

The left plate, once my sis put the sweet potato on the plate it immediate burn a hole on the plate.And the right plate, gosh... Is it a sweet potato or black charcoal?

Apart from the food, the host, the 'cut cake' section... everything was *vomit*. I shall not comment further. -___-

I want my simple happiness

Sometimes I just can't describe my own feelings. Am I happy, sad, disappointed, angry or whatever. Why do I keep feeling that whatever I do is not being appreciate at all? I never do anything bad, in fact whatever I can do I already did. I wonder is it that his parent doesn't like me at all? Even if it so, should they just tell him straight? At least I will know. Unless someone tell me that my thinking is wrong.

From the start, I never even offended them. All along I always go over to his place & join his family for dinner but now due to this new work, I often have to work on Saturday... so I can't go over as I'm tired. Well ever since then, things are getting worse. *Sigh* At times I do try to drop by during weekdays. But well, little things I do, they won't even notice.

Whatever things they feel their son is doing wrong, they simply push all the blames to me. Do they even know, I am the one who asked their son not to fetch me or send me to work? But he keep insist as he felt it's his duty. They thought I treat him as a driver but I didn't! Even his son tried to explain to them, they still don't believe. *sigh* I AM BORN IN A FAMILY WHEREBY WE TRAVEL VIA BUSES OR MRT! I don't need a driver!

In fact, their family is the one treating him like a driver, call him to bring them here and there. Even he got work, mon - fri, on sat they also expect him to wake up early and bring them out to eat and buy groceries. Sometimes he just want to took some times off and go out and enjoy, they will keep calling him to come home early and etc. So much more things that I don't wanna disclose all. =/

During weekdays, sometimes we just took 1 day and meet each other for dinner, his mum will call and ask him to go home early. At times she will even say, "very rich arh? why eat outside, can't eat at home?" *sigh* It's just for a day! I wonder what's wrong.

There was 1 time, my mum was so kind and asked him to come over and have dinner with us (his mum NEVER ONCE asked me to go over for dinner) and when he reached home, he told his mum about it and his mum reaction was, "Home never cook ar? Why has to go other people house eat?" When I heard about this I was really fuming. Argh! But I just forget it. It just her comment.

Everytime he stay over at my place till quite late, I'm always the one advising him to go home early. And fyi, I only go out late ever since I know him and I'm not even the one that make their son go home late. They should know since the days he know me, he already got such habits of going out late for supper and etc. It's me who keep telling him to go home early and skip the unnecessary supper! *sigh* It's just easy to push the blames. If only they know what I have done... But well they don't even care.

I can don't care about what his family said about me but when I heard it and know about it, I felt very hurt. Their 'latest comment' hurts alot too... That time I gave 1/2 of the durians for his family... They are not thankful at all, his parent even commented that the durians was not nice only some was nice etc. In the end? They finished everything and only left 2-3 for my bf. WTF? If it's not nice, why do they even EAT?

Then 2 weeks ago, I finally got time off from my work. So I decided to go over in the sat morning. He has to fetch his sis back from work , so he told me if I am able to reach Tampines @ 7:15am, I can join them for breakfast & can sit his car and go his house. And so he told his mum about this. His mum reaction was, "whay you want to do such stupid things? Why want to send her?" He was pissed and told his mum, "if she can reach tampines early, why can't just send her since we are there to? Why you have to be so black hearted?" His mum was dumb founded after that. After I heard about this, I told myself, it's ok, I can take train + bus myself. I just felt sad again.

I just wonder why? Why? I never even do anything wrong, someone just tell me why? Last fri I went out with him for dinner, his mother called him and ask him to come home early as the have to go LTA the next early morning. After he hung up, he complained that his father was shouting at the background and said, "don't bring your gf home later." My bf told me that maybe his dad doesn't want me to know too much about his family or whatever. I don't know. Throughout the night, I pretend nothing ever happen. I just pretend I am ok.

What happen? Don't ask me, I don't even know but I can swear I never do anything harmful to them or whatever. Sigh I really don't know why but I just be happy and thankful that I got a very nice & thoughtful bf. I shall not complaint too much as to add on to his burden and I don't want him to be 'sandwiched' too.

Well, maybe I feel better after writing this out =) So, I'm okay. I'm strong! I just want to get my simple happiness.

I saw this while I'm watching Absolute Boyfriend. LOL.

Unlucky or not?

Hurhur! My blog title sounds kinda nasty. Anyway, I just feel kinda bad luck todfay and so here are the list of "unlucky" or so called suay happening...

1) In the morning, my alarm rang and I switch it off! End up I woke up @ 8am and I'm late for work.

2) Well, today I took a 1/2 day leave because I needed to go to ICA to do a IC replacement as I lost my IC after a watching Drag me to hell. -___- My IC went to hell too.

3) I was so damn busy this morning and I got hell lotsa things to do as compare to other days... Why oh why... and this makes me can't leave office @ 12pm sharp!

4) Dear was equally busy and therefore he wasn't on time to fetch me to ICA. Normally, he was quite free eh. I was quite pissed at that time.

5) 1pm, I called my dear and asked if he was ready but he didn't pick up the phone. %#$% When I tried to call again, my phone battery went flat.... BOO!

6) In the end I just flag for a cab. In the cab, I change my phone battery and I called my dear and he said he was ready to come and fetch me... WTH! When I hung up, I saw 2 sms from my dear. The message was saying that he was ready to come and meet me. OMG the messages were sent when my phone was dead! $%%%%##@@% if I recieved it earlier I won't take a cab!!!

7) The damn cab fare cost me $9.80. It's not like I'm damn poor but the money paid just to go ICA to report loss of IC is not worth it!! >_< style="font-weight: bold;">3:45pm but IT WAS 3:15PM!! WTF!

9) I went in and told the invigilator I went to ICA to report loss of IC and therefore I was late. I show her the slip of paper but she refuse to let me take the test. T_T She said this slip of paper need to have a photo and a stamp from ICA then it's valid to take the test. If not I need to bring my passport. I looked at the time, I know it's too late to go back home to take my IC. Boohoohoo... There goes my $6

10) .................... What you think I'm gonna be so unlucky for the whole day?!

At the end of the day. after all these stupid unlucky things, I thought my day really sucks! But I sat down and think about it again, I'm not that unlucky after all. In fact, I'm actually glad that whenever I'm down, I know I will always has someone to accompany and comfort me.

Thank you dear! =)

I came home and I got my mama who was preparing for dinner for the family. What more can I ask for?

What is recession to my company?

I am currently paid to go to work on Saturday to play facebook, listen to mp3 and idling around the world wide web. I just come for the sake of coming... No no.. I just come because my boss told me so.

Sometimes I wonder if I should spent this precious time at home studying for my exam or come here because my stupid boss asked me to come and said that he wanna discuss stuff with me (end up he didn't even do so). Thanks so much for the free money!

Actually, I'm quite freaking pissed off with my boss. He is unorganised person and simply heck care on certain things. I wonder if he know what he wants me to do. Oh wait! Does he even know what he is talking about? It's kinda complicated to type them down in proper words.

Well, from now on, I can't care less about this job. I will just do my work and continue to use my colleague's login ID and email.

Anyway, last night Ben, LK, Dear and me went Chinatown to celebrate Tim's bday! Photos will be up tomorrow as I'm at my workplace. DUH! Well, I long already felt that XY & Alvin are no longer part of us. So it doesn't really matter even if they are not here. I don'['t really feel a pinch. Haha.

Oh well well.. what's my plan after work for today... Hmm.. Feel like going Vivo to vuy the 2 polo tees. Hehe.

What a lousy start...

This morning was kinda bad. The moment I step into the MRT station, I saw there was a notice on there won't be any train services from Pasir Ris to Tanan Merah. I thought it was no big deal as it was in the east side and not west side. To my horror, after I tap my EZ-link the crowd that were in station was crazy. It was like a Xmas crowd in Orchard or like some crazy sales. Every station was packed like sardines not just in the train but the station as well.

I not only missed the free bus to work but also sprained my ankle while walking down the stairs from the overhead bridge. It was already the last step and I....just MISS IT! W$##%


Also, why no news report in CNA? No any kind of explanations at all?


Well... Perhaps it's just Monday blues...

Someone stole my $9.90 slipper!

OMG! Who is that hungry ghost? *Checked calendar* Wait! It's not even the 7th month yet. Wait! Ghost don't steal slipper, don't they? It's really crap man! It's just a $9.90 slipper that I bought in Cineleisure. $#%$#% Now, I have to go and buy a new one again.

I wish I could...

Sometimes I wish I could just kill someone and get away with it. I really can't wait for the day that I got promotion. HAHA. After that I can hand in my resign letter and leave here, unless they got better position to offer. Haha.

I'm really sick of here, it's more of... HER Haha. There's a Chinese saying, 'One type of rice, breed different kind of people'. She is just one of those bad breed. Well, it's time for me to sing Justin Timberlake's song again...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

I was doing my Math assignment yesterday and I got stucked because I found out that the paper didn't give us the salvage amount!! Then how am I suppose to calculate the depreciation? Haha. I sms Tony and asked him about this last night, he only replied me the next day. Then I replied him a few hours because I was sleeping earlier on. Then till now he not yet reply me -_- He is really like a old uncle, replying a sms takes him so long! $%#$% I shall go and scold him tomorrow. *sigh* We got 2 more weeks to hand in the assignment. Hopefully, we can do it on time and most importantly, we DO IT CORRECTLY!!

D for Desmond, D is for DOG!

Morning was bad. I got frightened by Ko. He suddenly came from behind and tapped on my bag and asked me this stupid question, "did I frighten you?" Gosh! Obviously, you did!

I hate the word LATE! So pissed off this morning. I got an email yesterday saying that I need to attend the reharsal for the stupid Sucess Seminar at 10:30am. I came at 10:30am and I didn't even see a single soul not even a trace of Ghost's shadow. I waited for another 15minutes, still there was no sight of any human. Yea, maybe only Randy and Yan ping. Desmond was still sitting at his idiot chair doing this own things.

When the time strucked 11am, I was even more pissed off. I went to look again, the training room was empty. I was like thinking, "why does these people are so fucked up?" I was very mad and I went downstairs to eat my breakfast alone. So fucking waste my time to come so early and breathe the Nu air. After that I then realised that they started the stupid reharsal at 11am plus. I totally missed the whole stupid reharsal but do you think I give a damn about it?

To idiot who sent me the fucking email,

If you don't plan to start the stupid thing so early then please don't set the time at 10:30am! You are a fucking idiot!

Losing money

Yesterday was so tiring because there were tons of last minute Singaporean trying to clear their default order. They are making me a sad girl because I don't know why I end up paying $8.25 for them. Thanks alot.

The things that upset me was I double check twice but I still make mistakes. *sigh* The other day, I don't even bother to check and yet I got a 'tick' and vrooomm I can go home without feeling sad because my $ just left my pocket. Well, I guess I won't stay at the company for long.

Smoke to your graveyard

Music: 50 cent - Candy shop

I went to Art friend to buy some stuffs for my art assignment. Along the way, there were so many smokers!!!!! It stinks so much! I wonder what are these people thinking? Smoking looks cool? Smoking help you to distress?? No way man, it's all bullshit. -_-

No matter what campaign the government introduce or whatever talks that we have in school, it seem to be totally useless. Does those people really care about what will happen to their lungs and brains in the future? Do they really bother that going to suffer from cancer sooner of later? Do they really know I am a victims because I have become a passive-smoker....How I wish this world will be a smoke-free place to live in. Anyway, on my way home, I saw Li Nanxing ex-wife. Haha

I have been tied down by assignments! *yawn* I have not been getting enough sleep. Every morning, I just don't wish to get up!!!

Everything came pouring when I'm sick

I'm down with flu, fever and sore throat and I STILL have to go to school. Normally, I'd have happily skip school!!!!! This time round is different. I have to go back to school to complete the group work project!! I still have to go to school tomorrow because tomorrow is the presentation! ARGH!! Bloody hell! Why do I have to be sick at this period of time when I need my energy the most!!

So frustrated with one of my group member! It's fine that she is not going to contribute anything but she kept asking stupid questions. Does she even know what we are doing? That day we were supposed to go to National library together but she went home instead. She ALWAYS doesn't have the time. She is just waiting for our instructions!!! ACK!!!

The worst has yet to come...... SHE IS GOING TO BE IN THE SAME GROUP AS ME FOR THE NEXT GROUP ASSIGNMENT. My lecturer is so FUCKING STUPID. She asked the class this question:"Are you all happy with your previous group and wish to continue to stay in the same group? If so please put up your hand." For fuck sake! This is such a stupid question!!! If I'm not happy, can I really said it???? How would the person look at me the next time. You know, I don't want to make enemy. Anyway, I don't even have a choice because the are fucking happy with their group members.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! That day when we have not even decide our group members, the rest have already did. Then class leader asked us:" Is it ok to let C join you 2?" STUPID!! Can we really say NO!? NO RIGHT?! STUPID! It's like as if we still have a choice.

I didn't talk much to anyone yesterday because I'm like....hating everyone who sits on the right side of the class.... ARGH! ARGHHHH!! When I reached home I still have to draw those cartoon animals...Im not feeling well!!! But I still have to do it!!! I'm dying soon! I almost can't take it but I just have to hang on to it.

Life is nothing but nothing.

mood | crazy

*Last night post only show up this morning. WTF?*

Ok. Let's not compare with those celebrities yeah?

Why isn't anyone telling me that how beautiful this life is?
Why isn't anyone telling me how much they love their life?

Because life is like a straw, it suck!
Because no one around me is loving it.

Why I always see people complaining about their situation?
Why I always see people doing things that they don't wish to do?

Because they are hating it.
Because they are leave to no choice.

Why there isn't any inspiring people living around me?
Why there isn't anything for me to look forward to?

Because there isn't any around.
Because everyday is boring.

Is is because I live in this pea-sized island and I am leave to no choice?
Is it because I am the one who causes all these problems?

Yes.
Yes.

Will everything change if I'm living elsewhere?
Will everything change if there are more opportunities in this pea-sized island?

Maybe. Life can be unpredictable but mine is so predictable.
Maybe. What can I ask for.

Blame myself for being lazy or stupid?
Blame my parents who gave me a not-so intelligent gene?

Yes.
Sorry. But it's a yes.

Students study for their future.
Adults work for survival.

I am a quitter once again. I just wanna run away from this place. I don't like having a repetitive life. No one likes it. I wanna die early. Death isn't something that is scary to me but if I die now I will like alot of things I have not accomplish.

What mothafucking life I have. Life is really DO OR DIE!

Whatever! I'm turning crazy. Just like this picture. Or I should say, I'm turning crazy, just like how I listen to the same songs over and over again.

I know James is feeling the same as me because I am talking to him right now. DUH!

James: because of this sick society. we have to study. because of this sick society now money is more difficult to earn.
Me: Yesh. the pace is so fast n pressurizing

We know we hate it but we still have to live on. What am I looking forward to each day?

DAYDREAM IS THE BEST THING I CAN LOOK FORWARD TO EACH DAY!

Oh.. maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

Nirvana | Lithuim

My stuff in my PC is gone, going...

mood | irate

So irritated. The HP customer service gimme the wrong no. to call. $#^%^%^#$%

I think the percentage of losing all my stuffs are 99%! *sigh* The saddest thing to lose was the video that I'm going to do for Grace's birthday! =x Ok, it's no longer a secret that I'm going to do a video for her as a birthday present. *sigh* I only did half way!! I put so much effort in editing those songs and etc!! I think I have to redo again! *sigh* Efforts don't pays off eh? *sigh* Should have just buy her something.

All my boyfriendssssss' photos will be gone! (about 50% of it) Especially, Totti's pictures! Isn't it sad? How long am Im going to take to save them back?? Oh.. What about those Motley Crue's videos???!!! Im gonna find Steph for this! *wink*

Right now, I can only laught about it. Laugh at myself maybe.

Today is Totti's 29th birthday!! No mood to celebrate for him. *sigh* He must be enjoying his good life in Italy.


MiG Ayesa | Live and let die