I have not been blogging ever since the start of 2012. I went through some dark period and decided to close myself up from the rest of the world. I have alot of issues with my ex for the longest time. I didnt blog it out as I feel it is my personal matter, I should just post happy pictures will do but how long can I cover myself? Me being stubborn, keep trying to tell myself that he will change for the better but he did not.
Our relationship have shaky start but everything eventually went ok for the first year. He at times can be really sweet and nice to me but something he can be a real pain in the ass. He can get along with my friends & family. Probably that was a plus point. He will bring me out, buy me random small stuff but eventually he stopped doing all these like after 1 year? Human do change, he too, he changed. His attitude towards the relationship change. The change is irreversible. I feel I am no longer important to him.I have give him tons of chances but he don't even treasure it. Even till the day I decided to let go of this 3 years + relationship, he didnt even bother to chase me back or do anything. Everything that I have done for him, truly means nothing to him anymore.
I wrote alot earlier on but I decided to delete them because it is pointless to bring up the past. What has passed stay in the past. Whatever is it, he isn't a totally bastard, I thank him for the good memories, things he bought, etc (yes I DO appreciate) but no thanks for being heartless and hurt me like nobody business. I will never ever cry for someone like you again and I will be happy and find my sunshine back. I HAVE MOVE ON!
Anyway, I wanna thanks a few people who have been with me throughout my bad times. Thanks to Erykca, who has been a good listener of mine and eventually she gave me the strength to gave up this pathetic relationship that I tried holding on for so long. Thanks to Andrew, who also tried to be an irritant and kaypo about my stuff. Lol. You are right, I should have gave up on this relationship long time ago. Your words do spur me on too. Thanks to my buddies, HT, SPY & Grassy, though you guys don't really know whats going on, but our random meet up, sms-ing doest take my mind off awhile ;) Also, thanks to all those random people who has been chatting up with me to find out what's going on.Also, thanks to MELANIE! Thanks for always being there whenever I have problems. Oh, how can I forget my belove sis, thanks for being there for me too though you never really advice me anything. Haha. lastly, I wanna thanks Kef thanks for coming into my life and bring back the sunshine in me.
Yes, this man, Kef, is the one who revive me from death. When I first get to know Kef, I only treated him like a friend, someone whom I can get along well and we have alot of in commmon. FYI, I did not fall for him when I am still with my ex. I am not that kind of person! First time, I saw him was at an event at Standard Chartered Marathon.I didn't really chat with him, all I remembered was I asked him to take his lunch. Lol. Nothing really happen there until we did another event together at J10. The funniest thing was when he and his friend saw me and his friend said, "wah you slim down alot after that Standard Chartered event. You went running for marathon?" I thought I should be flatter but later I realised, it was my polo tee that I wore the previous time that make me look fat! Oh... so depressing. Ok blah blah...
It is a 3 days event, so on the last day of event I asked him to help me to move the stuff to my car and back to office. He was very helpful and responsible, I always like his working attitude. Very strange, we are like 一见如故. On our journey back, we keep chatting non stop and what is even more strange is, we chat about our most personal stuff. I HAVE NEVER DONE SOMETHING LIKE THAT. As I mentioned earlier, my buddies don't even know what's going on with my life. Probably, only Mel & my sis know the details. I don't know what the hell, I told him everything and yes of cos he told everything about his side of stories. We are like 2 pathetic creatures kao-peh-ing about our life in the mini yellow picanto.....
I ddin't even know how to write about how he started going after me. It was crazy and his effort there was beyond words that can be describe. Lol.! After that night, he just kept asking me out. At times, I felt quite irritated but luckily, he is interesting enough to make me feel that he is not irritating. Haha. The first time going out dinner with him, he actually bought me a "muscle-ache" stick-on thingy. I was really like wtf and pushed the thing back to him but later I realised that he gave me that because earlier on I complaint to him about my muscle aching. Haha! But that was so wtf surprise! He was really thoughtful and caught me by surprise. It was nice evening chatting with him and gossiping about 1 of my colleague. At that point of time, I have no feeling for him.
We met up again the next day, he bought me something again. I won't go into details but I feel he does go out and put in effort to find out what I like without me knowing it. *clap clap* We continue to meet up continuously for a few days, as you know I am date-less and I am so free! *throw confetti* He surprise me everytime we met. This boy, oops I mean man, he meant everything he said.
I remember once, after a dinner we were walking back to my car, I suddenly got emotional and cried because I suddenly think of the past. He coax me and tell me everything will be okay. I feel bad for behaving this way but he did not mind at all. Maybe people will say this is the honeymood period but he will always said, "it is how we maintain the relationship and keep it going on."
One of the day, his relatives were having a gathering. he was very eager to bring me to see his cousins and relative. I was very shock, I was like "isn't it too fast?" Probably, it ain't too fast for someone looking for a serious relationship. His relatives are really nice and wonderful people, especially his cousin. They make me feel at home. That day, he specially asked his cousin to chat with me so I won't get bored. He never leave my sight, not until he need to pee. Lol. Before he went to the toilet, he looked for his cousin (so she can accompany me) but I told him it's ok. I don't whether I should laugh about this or what but he is really thoughtful I guess =)
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| This is him playing with his cousin's baby. |
This thing I MUST definitely mentioned, he waited for me whenever I have event. He waited for me for HOURS. The highest record till date is 6 hours! Poor thing. Not even a single complaint I hear from him, he will buy food and drinks for me because he know I don't get do eat when doing an event. So sweet of him :'(
If you ask me since when we got together, I will tell you I am not sure because it just happen.
Thank you baby for helping me to get on my feet again. :')
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| Shameless pic! I swear this is the first time I uploaded such pic! LOL! |